As we stand on the edge of 2019 I wanted to take a look back at 2018. The good and the bad. The highs and the lows.
In general I would say that 2018 was not one of my best years. It wasn’t one of the worst either. Ever since I finished school in summer 2017 I have been feeling slightly stuck and unsure of what I want to do with my life. I embarked on a year long traveling/living abroad to get some time away and to really figure out what I want to do. It mostly ended up raising further questions though. Actually when I try to pin down the good and bad with the year I end up with mostly bad, but I think that says a lot about me as a person. I tend to be quite hard on myself.
So what did I actually enjoy and like about this year? Well, I am very happy that I had the chance to travel a lot! I spent the first part of the year living in Rome, Italy and from there I explored many parts of the country by bus. I also did a 2-week bus travel to get home to Scandinavia, stopping in Slovenia, Croatia, Austria and Germany.
Another thing I loved after a year of constantly being abroad and away from family and friends was moving back closer to home. Even if I was still an hour or more away, I did not have to fly to see my loved ones. I feel like all my relationships got more stable this year, partly because I moved closer to home. I also took more time to just be, both in the companion of others, but also when alone. This also connects to the fact that I have massively decreased my partying and intake of alcohol in the last year. There is nothing wrong with partying, it is just not something I enjoy a lot so getting rid of the being-bored-partying was nice. Except for a few big parties with close friends and staying up until sunrise I have enjoyed staying in with good food and company instead.
Some of the worse things I had going this year was the feeling of being lonely. Even though I loved living in and traveling other countries and learning new languages, I just really missed my people. Getting to know people when traveling sucks, especially as an introvert. In retrospect I am really glad for the travels I did, but I am not sure I will embark on journeys for months alone again. I just don’t know if that life is for me.
As a result of feeling very low and lonely I overdid a lot of things. Mainly shopping and eating. I shopped way too much during the year. My goal was to buy maximum 1 garment or shoes per month or 12 for the year in total and I miserable failed (ended up with more than double). This shows how important sustainability in ones (mental) health is for leading a sustainable life. The upside to this year’s shopping was that I made an effort to buy more sustainable or quality stuff. As well as starting to get more into second hand!
As for the eating, I ate too much shit. There is nothing wrong with treating yourself a bit, but when you buy potato chips 2-3 times a week and several times end up having it (like an entire bag…) for dinner it is no longer treating yourself, it’s a bad habit. I could feel how my mood affected my cravings and I would consume very little somedays and others I would binge on junk food.
Although some highs and lows came during the year I can appreciate it. I have really high hopes for 2019 and hopefully I will again find balance and routine in life. Learn new and interesting stuff. Engage more, with people and purposes and make an effort to work on my goals.
I almost forgot! Another thing I am happy about doing in 2018 is that I started this blog and engaged in the sustainable fashion and sustainable living community on Instagram. It has taught me so much and gives me so much inspiration that I get to bring with me into 2019!